On Consciousness

I have been a spiritual seeker for many incarnations.  In this life I learned Transcendental Meditation at 13 years of age thanks to my mother's influence and example.  Trained as a nurse she eventually became an astrologer committed to uplifting people to achieve their spiritual and worldly potential.   From an early age I experienced grace in many forms as I meditated eventually taking the TM-Siddhis course and learning yogic flying which was a delight.  There are two great themes in the avatar of of my ego as it developed: the search for Self-realization and mental illness.  

Eventually in my 30 year psychoanalysis with Dr. Joel L. Whitton, MD, PhD, I met the Shadow.  I was hospitalized 9 times in 13 years for relapses of a stress disorder.  Joel was the author of 'Life Between Life', a best seller in 13 languages in 30 countries about his patient's exploration of the inter-life period in the Bardo between incarnations.  My psychotic relapses, from a spiritual perspective, were the result of releasing and healing past-life trauma.  Today, 12 years after my last relapse I am well and have healed my mental illness but I still take the anti-psychotic Risperidone and rely on the wise counsel of my physician and spiritual advisor.  Carl Jung said that '90% of the Shadow is pure gold'.  It contains a great amount of energy and potential which can be integrated in the spiritual journey to foster a healthy consciousness.    My soul has always been whole and well,  as a Yogi in the making I have learned that my total consciousness is multiply aspected, creative, spiritual and powerfully committed to the sadhana of seeking God and uplifting those who suffer with mental illness through spiritual direction counselling.